A LETTER TO LOVE FROM PAIN

DEAR LOVE,

HI MY NAME IS PAIN AND RECENTLY WE HAVE BEEN MISTAKEN AS THE SAME. SEE I THINK THAT MR.CUPID IS THE BLAME. YOU PROVIDE THE WARM FEELING INSIDE AND I PROVIDE THE EMOTION OF US WELL THEM THE PEOPLE WANTING TO DIE. YOU MAKE THEM KISS AND AS FOR ME I MAKE THEM CRY, YOU MAKE THEM HUG AND HOLD HANDS AND I MAKE THEM BACK STABB A FRIEND. YOU BRING PEOPLE ALL TOGETHER AND SO DO I FOR YOU A WEDDING AND FOR ME WHEN PEOPLE DIE. SO NOW TELL ME LOVE DO YOU THINK THAT YOU AND I ARE TRULY THE SAME?

SINCERLY YOURS,
PAIN

BY:PEBBLES DANDRIDGE

FRIENDS

YOU MADE ME LOOK IN THE MIRROR AND LOVE WHAT I SEE
YOU MADE ME USE MY MIND AND BE ALL THAT I CAN BE.
YOU TOLD ME THAT I MATTERED AND HOW YOU LOVED ME.
I GAVE YOU A HUG AND TOLD YOU HOW MUCH YOU MEANT TO ME
YOU MEAN THE SUN AND THE STARS AND A SHOPPING SPREE AT THE MALL.
YOU MEAN EVERYTHING TO ME YOU HELPED ME REALIZE HOW SMART I CAN BE.
YOU GAVE ME A HAND WHEN I NEEDED IT MOST AND I LOVE YOU MORE THAN ANYONE KNOWS.
YOU CONFIDE IN ME AND I CONFIDE IN YOU.
NO MATTER WHAT IT WAS OR IS I KNOW I COULD ALWAYS COUNT ON YOU YOU MEAN EVERYTHING TO ME AND NOW THAT I'VE SAID THAT LET ME SAY THIS..

THANK YOU AND IM HAPPY WE'RE FRIENDS.

BY:PEBBLES DANDRIDGE

PLANT OF LOVE

HOW CAN YOU ALLOW MY LOVE TO RUN DRY. INSTEAD OF LOVING ME BACK ALLOWING ME TO HAVE LIFE YOU PULL AWAY AND LET ME DIE. I WANTED TO BELIEVE THAT WITH YOUR LOVE I CAN STAY ALIVE I WOULD REVIVE MYSELF, BUT ALL I HAVE DONE IS GOTEN WEAK AND CHANGED COLOR AND IN ORDER FOR ME TO GROW YOU MUST TALK TO ME, LOVE ME, CARE FOR ME AND WATCH ME BEGIN TO GROW GREEN FOR I AM LIKE NO OTHER I AM UNIQUE. I LIVE OFF LOVE AND LIVE TO BE FREE. I NEED YOU AND YOU OBVIOUSLY NEED ME. FOR MY FOOD IS LOVE AND MY THIRST IS YOU WHEN GIVEN THE CHANCE I WANT TO GROW WITH YOU. FOR I AM A PLANT OF LOVE

BY:PEBBLES DANDRIDGE

UNIQUE

IN THE BEGINNING THERE WAS ME AND A RAZOR BLADE TO MY SKIN TIRED OF THE LIES I EXPRESS AND THE TRUTH I HELP WITHIN. KIDS AT SCHOOL NOT SUPPORTIVE AND PARENTS SO DAMN CONFUSED. THEN WHEN THEY GAIN UNDERSTANDMENT TURNING AGAINST YOU TO. EMOTIONS BUILT UP AND COURAGE PUSHED ASIDE THEN ONE DAY YOU SEE A STUD GIVING YOU THE EYE.ASK WHAT YOU ARE GAY OR STRAIGHT. YOU DONT REPLY AFRAID OF WHAT THEY'D SAY. THEN THEY SAY IM GAY AND PROUD WHICH IS THE STATEMENT THAT BROUGHT YOU OUT. NO LONGER AFRAID TO BE UNIQUE PROUD TO SPIT YOUR VIEWS. USING THAT RAZOR BLADE IN THE BEGINNING TO SLIT YOUR WRIST AND LET THE QUEER FLOOD OUT THE SCHOOL.

BY: PEBBLES DANDRIDGE
"PIINKYUNIQUE"

i am so in love with you that i cant even explain it that the blood that flows through my veins screams your name. that the thought of you with another chick sets me into flames. i wanna be the girl in your arms when you sleep at night. the one where when you kickin it with the boys and i call.. you love me enough to be like yea man dats ma wife. i wanna be the one that you can run your fingers through her hair. the one that you go shoppin with and watch her try on her outfits.i wanna be the one you can hold hands with walk on the beach to watch the stars.the one that can sit with you and appear to watch movies..see i say appear because you would be watching the movie and would be listening as your every heart beat sends chills down my spine..i wanna be the one that you share your thoughts with where with every oppinion you send a plaseant shock to my hot spot..just because of how damn intelligent you are and your beautiful outlook on life..i wanna be the one that you go to an art museum with and critique the work there so that we can have a intellectual conversation about what the artist was thinking..i wanna be the one to cook for you and make you pleased..i wanna be the chick that can cater to your needs as well as you to mine..i wanna be the one that you travel with so that we can share the wonderful and mind blowing experience of what we've seen..i would love for you to invite me into your world as well as you inviting me into yours and just sharing with eachother the personal and public things about ourselves..i love poetry and that is a part of me so i would invite you to write with me so you can see the process it takes for me to think of the exact yet correct word that i want to fill into that space on the blank page where the randomized thoughts from my head can come alive..i want you to know that i am feeling you so damn much that not even the 4 letter word love can describe the emotionz you have engraved into my heart..my heart once was broken but you came and mended it with your love..i love you so much i may have to let you go which brings tears to my medium brown eyes you know the eyes i wanted stare into yours and get lost in each others gaze until the end of time ... your name is the first and last thing on my mind just as you are the first and last person who is on my min...theres nothin that i wouldnt do for you and i would hope that you feel the same but only time will tell if your feeling the same as i do then i will soon be your girl then..thats how i once felt..but you have given me your decision and well i guess i have to truly say i love you so much that i respect every word spoken and have to support you in your choice...so i have to let you go relationship wise..but i could neva let go of you as a friend...i hold you to close to my heart....now this has gone from poem to thoughts..hehe..well i guess i can leave by saying that i do feel deeply for you and im hoping that you feel the same....i would ask you to tell me but my heart and mind already know...

forever yours,
pebbles dandridge
"piinkyunique"

the way i feel about you

"when i open my eyes i look up and thank god for my life.
when i step foot on the ground i thank god for puttin you in
my life.
when i check my phone and its a message from you i grin so
hard my cheeks hurt.
when my phone begans to ring i hope that its you when its not
i tell the person to get off the phone so my line is clear just so you can
get through..
i wanna use a 4 letter word other than i really really really really really really like you.
now you set me up with some insecurities like walkin out the house with a red face.
bein exposed in my room..
and the constant thoughts of you and someone else in the back of my head all because all of this internet crap...
i be wonderin if you feel the same i feel im lettin my guard down so that i can trust you and be with you...
when i hear your voice i get butterflies boo..
we laugh about nothing..
we make eachother have 'FUN'
just by sayin your name it makes my knees buckle..

i woulda said i love you but cant take that step right now..
i would rather you said it first so i know how serious you are
but hey wat can i say we are only human and we all make mistakes
and i love that you except me for me and all my craziness,goofyness and
loving spirit when im down you make me happy and when im happy you make
me hot..haha..well yea you know what im trying to say

i really really really really like you ALOT!!"

by:pebbles dandridge

tear drops

"IM FEELIN LIKE TAYLOR SWIFT
CAUSE YOUR THE TEAR DROPS ON MY GUITAR
THE ONLY THING THAT KEEPS ME WISHIN ON A WISHIN STAR
I USED TO WANNA FUCK EVERYGIRL BUT NOW ITS JUST YOU
EVERYTIME I TALK TO YOU I FALL DEEPER IN LOVE WITH YOU
SOMETIMES I HAVE TRUST ISSUES BECAUSE OF WHATS HAPPENED
IN THE PAST.
IM NOT IN LIKE WITH YOU IM IN LOVE AND LIKE WITH YOU AND I HOPE THAT
YOU UNDERSTAND THAT.
THIS SHIT REALLY SUCKS BECAUSE YOU THE FIRST TO GET ME SO EMOTIONALYY ATTACHED..
I HEAR YOU SAY THAT YOU LOVE ME AND CAN READ IT IN THE BLOGS BUT THEN I GET CURIOUS AS TO WHY YOU WOULDNT WANT PEOPLE TO KNOW
THAT YOU WERE TALKIN ABOUT US..
THEN I FLASH BACK TO THE TIMES SO MANY HAD SAID THAT I WAS THE ONLY ONE BUT I WASNT AND HOW THEY LIED CLAIMIN THEY WAS KEEPIN IT 100
I AM TRYIN TO LET YOU SEE WHAT KINDA GIRL THAT I AM BUT I DONT KNOW IF YOU QUITE UNDERSTAND I WILL LOVE YOU BETTER THAN ANYTHING IN THE WORLD AND THATS ME PUTTIN IT IN MY OWN WORDS..
I WOULDNT HURT YOU BECUASE I DONT WANT TO AND I KNOW HOW IT FEELS
I WOULDNT SAY I LOVE YOU IF I REALLY DIDNT MEAN IT..
IW OULDNT CALL YOU BABE OR BABY IF I WASNT SURE THAT IT WAS YOU I
WANT.
YOU WOULD HAVE NEVER SPOKEN TO ANY OF MY SISTERS IF I WASNT READY TO GIVE YOU MY HEART BECAUSE FOR THEY HAVE IT TO
YEA I KNOW IM WILDIN RIGHT NOW BUT YOU HAVE TO REALIZE YOUR WHATS GIVIN ME THE STRENGTH TO TRUST AND LOVE AGAIN AND I HOPE THAT WITH YOU THAT THE CYCLE OF ME GOIN THROUGH SO MUCH PAIN ENDS..
I WILL NEVER HIDE ANYTHING FROM YOU BECAUSE THATS NOT THE KINDA GIRL THAT I AM..SHIT ALL I CAN SAY IS THAT IM GIVIN YOU ALL OF ME MY FLAWS AND EVERYTHING..

NOW THE TRUE QUESTION IS ...CAN YOU EXCEPT ME???"

by: pebbles dandridge

inspired by lauryn hill

"Care for me, care for me
You said you care for me

There for me, there for me
Said you'd be there for me

Cry for me, cry for me
You said you'd die for me

Give to me, give to me
Why won't you live for me


lauryn hills ex factor says it best....
you wanted to know how i felt so i gave
you a link to this..
now im tellin you world wide i want
you to leave me alone and get over me
you hurt me bad and made it hard for me
to trust but you know what everytime i look
in the mirror i remind myself that i wasnt the
one who messed up...but hey neither one of us
did i just look at our little mishap as wasnt meant
to be you tried to play me like monopoly..and lets just
say i owned boardwalk and you tennessee ave.
welp i have moved on so now i advise you to do the same...

bye,

pinkyunique's thoughts

by:pebbles dandridge

given the name love

why is that you have this horrible effect over me you have the power to make me change but yet stay the same you make me laugh you make me smile and act goofy you take away all pain and sorrow ever in my life you make me wanna be your best friend and lover your everything i want every title that there is created from bestfriend to wife i want you to know that im always gonna be there for you no matter wat i want you to know i will always be your ride or die i never wanna end our conversations with bye or farewell but see you later i always want you in my life cause you mean the world to me and yea it took us a while maybe longer than others but we have finally met and nobody nor thing can ever take you from me which i wish they would finally see.i will always hold your hand and never let goi will keep all of our shared secrets with each other locked up in a volt i will continue to pray for you and family to you allow me to be myself you wouldnt have it any other way i cook with you.i sing with you.i dance with you.i sleep with you.i wake up with you.i write poetry with you.i pray with you.i read with you.i talk with you.i am very close to you.i never want things to change i just want to say i am glad that god gave you the name
LOVE

by:pebbles dandridge

poetry expression

i could sing you a song for eternity.i could rap if thats something that you loved i could dance to show my effection i could write and recite you poetry to show and give you my soul i can continue to write but the question is can your heart stand more? i could sell you a broken watch so that our time together would never pass my heart is a lockbox and you hold the key the day you officially think your ready to love then get the key and unlock mein doing that you will unleash ever inch of passion i carry every trait in personality...classy,hood,sweet,suttle,good,bad,naughty,crazy,ugly,sexy,and romance.unleash it all cause i want you to have all of me even the flaws see now i could write you a novel standing here at only 17,but what would that solve cause with me being a poet it would be nothin but love poems.now alot of things make me smile only a few make me laugh like you.i was taught m.o.n money over niggas but that also means o.m.y.b only missing your blessing and i have many things that i can say to you but writing you this poem is just a start our love goes above and beyond from heaven and the stars..love sometimes is blindin but this love allows me to find my one and only passion, and thats giving you my poetry expression.

who??

who are you to say i wont make it
who are you to question my sexuality
who are you to question my relationship with G-O-D
who are you to determine how i feel
who are you to call me those things
who are you to watch after me
who are you to hurt me so bad
who are you to say this is what i deserve
who are you to make me happy
who are you to make me sad
who are you to allow me to be smart
who are you to allow me to continue to learn
who are you to tell the fakes i know "HI HATER"
who are you im dying to know
who are you?
you are me

by:pebbles dandridge

victim stand

NOW YOU LISTEN TO ME DONT YOU EVER HOLD A GUN OR TAZER UP TO ME TELLING ME TO GIVE YOU MY STUFF NAH SEE YOU GOT THE GAME MIXED UP THIS AINT BURGER KING YOU CANT HAVE IT ANY WAY YOU WANT
NOW YOU LISTEN TO ME DONT YOU EVER FORCE ME TO OPEN MY LEGS TO YOU DUDE THIS AINT MOTEL SIX I AINT LEAVIN NO LIGHTS ON FOR YOU
NOW YOU LISTEN TO ME DONT TAKE THAT ROUTE YOU TAKE THAT DRINK I GURANTEE WE'LL CRASH HOW CAN YOU DRIVE KNOWING YOUR DRUNK I DONT WANNA DIE IM WAY TOO YOUNG
NOW YOU LISTEN TO ME STOP TREATING ME SO BAD DUDE I AM A WOMAN NOT A DUDEOR A PUNCHING BAG!
NOW YOU LISTEN TO ME DONT YOU HIT ME AGAIN MOM AND DADY OUR SUPPOSED TO LOVE ME IM YOUR KID
NOW YOU LISTEN TO THEM THE PEOPLE YOU ARE MAKING VICTIMS TO YOUR CRIME.YOU VIOLATING AND HURTING THEM WILL NOT SOLVE THE ONES YOU ARE FACED WITH!

by: pebbles dandridge

WHY! TELL ME WHY ARE YOU WORKING AGAINST ME
I PRAY YOU LAUGH
I TALK ABOUT GOD YOU TURN THE MUSIC UP FULL BLAST
YOU BEGG FOR ME TO SERVE YOU TELLING ME "GOD SEE HE DOESNT DESERVE YOU"AND IN TIME I WOULD SEE THE TRUTH TELLING ME THAT ONE DAY MY LIFE WOULD BE THROUGH THAT I COULD COME DOWN AND RULE HELL WITH YOU BUT SEE I HAVE AN RUDE AWAKENING FOR YOU BECAUSE I DONT LIKE THE HEAT I TEND TO SWEAT MY EDGES OUT AND LORD KNOWS I DONT WANT THAT.. THEN I CANT SLEEP AND I WOULD FEEL AS THOUGH I CANT BREATHE CAUSING ME TO CALL ON THE LORDS NAME WHICH I KNOW IS AGAINST THE JOB DESCRIPTION YOU WANT ME TO CLAIM THEN YOU SAY WELL YEA YOU KNOW THE SAYING PEOPLE IN HELL WANT ICE WATER WELL THEYLL DELIVER IT ONE DAY AND I SAY WOW HOW IGNORANT CAN YOU BE THE LORD IS NEVER GOING TO GIVE ME UP DONT YOU SEE...OH YOU HAVE NOTHING ELSE TO SAY HUH? WELL LET ME TELL YOU THIS I THINK IMMA ROLE WITH JESUS CHRIST OFFER BECAUSE HE OFFERS ME THIS ETERNAL LIFE..AND BEING A CHOSEN GENERATION AND ALL YOU CAN OFFER ME IS A BAD HAIR DAY UMMMM.....I THINK NOT SO NOW HOW ABOUT THAT?

BY:PEBBLES DANDRIDGE

poetry love making

i want to play a game where in the end you'll be screaming my name. as the poetic words leave your mouth each one is a sweet lick on my body it penetrates my skin with uncontrollable pleasure. But yet you still haven't touched me yet matter of fact we even 5 feet away from eachother.
i tell you that i wish i was the ray of sunlight that kisses you in the morning.
i want to play this game where in the middle i can make you moan and scream not touching your body but speaking to you in plain poetic wordsyou know using other words and arranging them to speak something beautiful to you. taking you on a visual journey. making you have fantasies of making love on clouds by the way that i talk to you.i want to play a game with your mind and introduce youto my world. tying you up with my similes and going deep inside your sweet spot with metaphors. expanding each breath you take like the vocabulary i have vibrated against your pearl.making you cum to the intellectual words just spit at you.now that you've been satisfied this game of poetry love making is over.

by- me[pebbles dandridge]